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Jun. 19th, 2011 | 06:30 am

so! from now on, this livejournal will be...

greetings from 한국!!

Jun. 17th, 2011 | 06:24 pm
location: KOREA
mood: in wonderland
music: the sounds of an unfamiliar city

after a 12+hr flight, finally landed in koreaaaa! :D

i'm staying at kuya adrian, kristine unni, and baby yuna's place til my school's program starts.

I GOT TO MEET MY NIECE~!!!! she's soooooo cute!!

kuya adrian and kristine really look like sweet parents now.

aish idk what to do for blogging. i like lj's privacy settings but the weblog editor stinks! xanga's editor is really handy and uploading pics are so simple! ahhh we'll see how everything pans out. i guess.

anyway! plans for the coming days!

ballet festival
and ...something i forgot. lol

baby's 100day photoshoot! :D
and... something i forgot too xD

visiting yonsei
and... something i forgot again [oh gosh]

trip to jeju til the 23th!! :D


May. 27th, 2011 | 12:21 am

at this point, i'm so burnt out that i really dont care anymore

i really shouldnt care too much anyway cause i'm not going to grad school and, really, gpa has no value in the real world so i really shouldnt freak out like in the years before.

but the perfectionist in me cant seem to let go.

eff it, so long as i pass.

argh but i hate things not 100% my full effort.

ugh but i just cant concentrate!!!

adufhwehjd i dont want to runaway again!

ok. gonna just academic bulimia it all and them go to bed.

gonna shoo my perfectionist side away and happily sleep tonight.

so long as i pass, idc the letter or the number.


on another note: LAWRENCE IS FROM GERMANY!!!
the accent that i thought was filipino for so long was actually german!!
mind. explosion.

^see! burnt out! eff you school!


May. 15th, 2011 | 11:52 pm
location: in bed with a stiff neck and migraine ;.;
music: did it again - shakira [mmm daniel campos <3]

i'm a huge advocate for the importance of education but there's also so much truth behind this article.


midnight delusions

Apr. 28th, 2011 | 01:30 am
mood: drained drained

i've realized a pattern in my academic career:

fall - back from the 3month lull of non-study. vacationitis is a grave illness at this season. so i have tons of free time and my grades would be average as i get into the swing of things.

winter - toughest of the academic quarter but that's what drives to me to do really well.

spring - burnt like unhappy toast. -> KOGEPAN!

it also doesnt help that i cant concentrate this quarter because all i can thikn about is wanting this quarter to end so that i can go to korea already. >.<

looking back at my past post about this quarter being easy breezey, i laugh hysterically. such lies. i mean yes it's a nice schedule. but my busy-ness level is through the roof. seriously did not expect that. well, mostly because i didnt realize that i had so much to do within these 10 weeks. so i did it again [oops! ...lol]. i stretched myself out way too thin and now none of my things are given 100% . how sad.
officially learned my lesson and will really try to prevent it next year.

.....my wednesdays are crazy.


i hate spring -.-

Apr. 14th, 2011 | 11:41 pm
mood: frustrated frustrated

this week has reminded me that i hate spring.

allergies, papers, paperwork, certificate programs, clubs/orgs, activities, social life, busy busy busy [oh ya, the bees are out and about too~]
super tight schedule and just when i think i'm about done, turns out i have more to do that i forgot to include in my sched. so then i have to squeeze it into my sched somehow. and then all of the pressure hits me hard and i get this paralyzing headache that i cant function as efficiently as i wanted to be. and then i cry.

seriously, i am going to cut back on everything non-academic/career-related next year.

actually, just tempted to say "EFF IT ALL! I'M GONNA BE A HERMIT!" and start it this instant. but then i feel guilty that i'd drop all of my commitments but DAMNIT I WANT A BREAK!

omg i'm so excited!

Apr. 7th, 2011 | 12:18 am
mood: ecstatic ecstatic

officially booked my flights for korea and the philippines!!!

can these 3months just end already????


Apr. 5th, 2011 | 10:41 pm
mood: confused confused

so for the past week and a half, i've been having sleep issues.
i'd get 2 or 3 hrs of sleep a night and then for 2 nights, i couldnt sleep at all!
only the other night was i able to actually get a decent amount of sleep but it was at the expense of my classes [i slept through all of monday's classes!]

it's so frustrating cause it's freaking week 1!! i was totally looking forward to starting this amazing quarter: being on top of all my shit, attend every single one of my classes, repeat my wonderful straight A's.

BUT NO! all thanks to this damn sleep disorder that made me miss my classes, lose my appetites, and fall completely behind on my schoolwork!

so i finally got to see the sleep specialist doctor at the student health center.

not the prettiest of news. -.-

basically he said that it's gonna be a reoccurrence of senior year. he said that the lack of sleep and the loss of appetite were the red flags for symptoms of senior year.

which makes no sense to me because there is nothing wrong!! i feel nothing wrong!!!

then we goes on to say that its probably biological so there's really no real concrete explanation for it coming back EVEN THOUGH I TOTALLY DONT FEEL IT!!! damnit

i refuse to make it that way. i'm gonna my best to prevent it!

the past week was just a fluke! it's all cause of my messed up body clock from last quarter and my excitement for this quarter. that is the only real and proper explanation! i'm sticking with it damnit.

so anyway the doc says that i need a better nutritional diet [protein for breakfast, SUPER protein for lunch and SUPER carbs for dinner before 7pm] and exercise more regularly. then he gave me this sleep prescription as a security blanket but he said melatonin can work too.

i'm determined to everything in my power to prevent this reoccurrence.

two words

Mar. 25th, 2011 | 07:19 pm
location: home squared
mood: ecstatic ecstatic
music: trust me - yuya matsushita


oh! two more words!



romance and ideal dates

Mar. 21st, 2011 | 01:18 am
mood: pensive pensive
music: 사랑 빛 - CNBlue

spent the day sleeping and reading cute little romantic things in all kinds of mediums [manga, short stories, youtube, poems, skimming the books that have been neglected on my desk (sorry, books! i love you but it's been a hectic quarter ;.;)]

so it's pretty safe to say that i'm in that wistfully lovey mood. haha
you know, the kind where you think "oh love is so grand~! ^^<3 ....damn i want a boyfriend -.-"

so it led me to think about ideal dates/dream dates. it's the ever popular random talk question. haha!
i thought long and hard about it and came up with this conclusion [wtheck "conclusion"? this isnt an academic Q/A, mara. lol]

my dream date is just a night at home watching cheesey foreign movies [namely, but not limited to, Tagalog/Filipino movies] while eating popcorn and redvines.

but my ideal FIRST date is going somewhere bustling with life and fascination like the Griffith Observatory or a street market [ok, i'm aiming for a night market but that's only in asia >.<] or an art walk or an amusement park [but only in asia cause they've got cute little ones scattered everywhere while here in america, an amusement park would be disneyland and that's freaking expensive xD ..hmmm i guess the Santa Monica Pier is the closest thing but it's gotten pretty expensive nowadays too ;.;]

the typical "dinner and a movie" is lame because how can you really get to know that person when you're silently staring at a screen for 2hrs? you're having a date with the movie rather than the person. =/ and dinner is ok but you dont really talk. it's actually just a fancier version of small talk, at best. so ya, dinner and a movie is just considered "hanging out" to me, no matter who the person is.

ideal types, however, are a whole other story.
i could never have an ideal type of guy. humans are so complex. they're made up of all sorts of different traits. so having an ideal would be futile cause finding the exact match just adds more "goose" and "chase" to the already crazy goose chase. plus, an ideal would limit you from giving other types a try. which would be bad because what if those other ones who you automatically write off turn out to actually be better?
it's like clothes. it's good to know what suits you and what doesnt like a pair of skinnys vs an oversized chiffon-y number. but it's bad to stick with just one look like that nice conservative dress when that pretty off-the-shoulder would look just as lovely.
ya, in other words, i'll never be able to describe my ideal guy.
though some people have told me that a good type for me would be someone who could match me in energy. and ya i guess that'd be nice. but not ideal. just a good option.

yup. these have just been my musings for the day.

...dang it! all of this love love stuff that i'm thinking about! i need me some chocolate. >.